Back tire is slick again. Losing my job and...

[jasonn]

Life sucks for me right now. Tough going through Christmas and not telling my folks because I don't want to ruin their Holiday. Wife has been barely sane since I found out Monday. She's been up in the middle of the night crying ever since. Which I understand, but it's making it even worse on me.

I have no idea what in the f*ck I'm going to do. I just want to pass through the next few days and get the holidays over with. Hell I was broke and struggling before, and now with this going on it's pure hell.

For the past 3 days I've pretty much just been getting up and sitting in my bed just sitting there, not reading, not watching TV, not listening to music, I guess I just wanted everything to be quiet. Finaly got my shit together enough to get out of bed yesterday, shave and hit the shower and get out of the house. Called some friends and they are going to network for me but nothing will come about until after the "Holidays".

In a few hours I have to go and do the Christmas thing with my family. And I'm telling you all I want to do is be alone.

At any rate. I'll deal. I'll be back but for now I'm gonna be away for a little while.

So I'll see you guys later in about a week or two.

Everybody take care, have a good holiday. I'll be back as soon as I can.

-Jason

[acalliste]

WTF. I am so sorry Jason. Why do companies get rid of people right before Christmas? Bastards.

PM me your address, I should have a tire that will fit your bike with plenty of miles left on it.

Hang in there sweetie. If you want someone to talk to, you have my number.

[Fizzer]

Sholy hit! I HATE hearing when friends get axed right before Christmas. I have several friends here in town who are in the same predicament. My heart goes out to you jasonn.

Ditto to what AC has said.

[NeedinJustice]

Awww honey, I'm so sorry! If there's anything I can do, let me know. If you need an ear or a shoulder, I have lots of space on mine and will gladly share it. Stick together with your wife and don't let this pull you apart or drive a wedge between you, you'll both be ok.

[LaurenOE]

Jason...I'll try my best with some encouragement. I don't expect you to jump up and feel great after you've read what I say, but I hope you see a real person on the other side of this screen who did write the words. When times are tough, and the shit hits the fan, take a deep deep breath. Feel the pain you are going through. Take in as much emotion as you need. If you need to lay in bed for days, do so. Take whatever you need to get through the low you are in. Fuck the Holidays and the stupid merry making. Your situation is very personal and the only person that understands what you are going through is you. Feel how cruel people have been to you. Fuck them! Feel how you've been crushed and your spirit trampled. Fuck them! Feel how nothing is ever going to be right again. Fuck the world! Take it all in. Feel the weight on your chest. Feel the despair. Feel the weight pushing you into your mattress. Pull the pillow over your head.

Cry. Cry your eyes dry. Cry until you can't cry anymore. Cry until you are weak.

Lay in your bed when you can't cry anymore. Take a breath. Look up at the ceiling with the little cracks along the edges where the walls meet. Look at the light fixture. Feel the volume of the room. Realize that being at the bottom has one truth. You can't go any lower. Take your life? Fuck that; thats' too easy. The bottom is a lonely place, and there is some ass-kicking in your future. In that truth, embrace hope. With a crushed life, you can rebuild a new one in any way you want to. At the bottom, in a zero emotional state, any positive energy is a beacon for hope. Any good thoughts that you have, lift you higher on the ascent from despair. Think about little things you can do to start pulling you up. Positive thoughts can gain momentum as surely as the negative thoughts that took you down. Think positive little things, things that can't be taken away from you. Things that you can start calling your personal successes. Start thinking how you are going to make a comeback. Think about what you can do to make sure nothing like this can ever happen again. Think about how scared you were when you first rode your first roller coaster. Think about how rolling the throttle of your motorcycle has the component of danger, and the thrill of controlling that beast. Think about how you relate to your first roller coaster ride. Think how time changes perspective. You look back and laugh. "What was I so scared about?"

Life is that roller coaster. Life is riding a motorcycle. The roller coaster tricked you into thinking it was dangerous. The motorcycle is danger that you control.

You managed to live through both, and this hard time in life?

More of the same. Time will make things look differently.

Rock on and kick some ass when you are done crying your eyes out. Pull yourself up. Don't hate others for their success. Don't come away being bitter that you had to go through shit.

Build a new life, and take some positive energy into 2010 and the decade beyond.

[jasonn]

Thanks for the encouragement. I've worked since I was 16 (and also for gas for my little honda 50 on a farm) So I've never been unemployed before. Now I'm 41, my family relies HEAVILY on my income and in the aviation industry it's hard to find jobs right now because of the economy.

I just have to weather the next few days around my parents and uncles aunts etc... And then things will be better. I don't want any of them to know because of the impact it would have on their holiday.

I even had a hard time posting this up to you guys. Hell I mean it's Christmas Eve. I just know that I'll be scarce for a little while licking my wounds and I didn't want you guys to think I had abandoned you.

Again, thanks for your words of encouragement. Tammy I'll hit you up on my cell here in a bit.

J

[MEANGREENER]

MOTHER FUCKIN BASTAGES!!!..............sowwy bro......dont give in to the asswipes tho........theres work to be found out there .....it may be different but do what you have to right now..........I went from 22 years as a EE testing Gov aircraft and Tank parts to just above minimum wage changing oil in Limo's for a small outfit....

had a meeting the other day and work looks dead atlease till 2 quarter and in small change that means prolly another layoff facing us when we return on the 4th...allready cut bout 43 I think....and thats purrty good since we were allready down to bout 138....salary and hourly combined...

not trying to make this about me.....just know I have found Bunchies of us Blue collars in the same situation.....I'm still waiting on a State job hopefully ....less pay at first....alot''....but more steady and better benys......but no werd yet

I too have been where you are.....hell I think I gots that Bi-polars crap.......one day I get on here and laugh.....then return to my coverd up head on couch....then play with the kids...mostly hiding my stress that was bad enough BEFORE the Hollidayz..

I too must go visit tomorrows......and I DONT WANNA BAD!!!
plus I allready hear the "I'm so sowwy about yur job Greens" from my unspanked spoiled cousins and inlaws peeps..

I may just piss in the punch bowl and sit back and laugh.....then cry in the bathroom..



YOUR MY BESTEST BUDDY BRO.....U NEED SUMPTIN PM ME AND WE'LL TALK....kay

man huggies

[R1oldguy]

This REALLY F*CKING SUCKS!!!!. My heart goes out to ya bro. I just got axed AGAIN recently because of the ecomomy, so I feel your pain. Just keep a positive attitude and things will work out. I KNOW THEY WILL.
You're certainly not alone and don't think that you are. You have freinds and family and sometimes that's whom we need to lean on in times like this.
HEAD UP, Positive attitude and a wheelie NEVER hurts!!

[bumblebee]

You are being tested. Once you realize and accept you are not in control, things will get easier. You have your family and everthing else is just trappings and un-important. You have to be strong in your faith and know that things will work out.

[Whymista]

Sorry to hear that man. Maybe you can go do some volunteer work to just get you out of the house so you're not constantly focusing on misery.